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Plot Twist
Have you ever had those moments where you want to yell “plot twist?” I feel like my entire year has been devoted to that phrase. From...
Amanda Winder
Aug 15, 20144 min read
With Time
Will we still be having the same conversation 5-20 years from now? Will we still be ever so curious…. wondering how life without dad is a...
Amanda Winder
Aug 12, 20144 min read
Respecting Moments
How do I feel right now? I feel rested, but I’m still searching….. searching for so much and completely curious and intrigued by this...
Amanda Winder
Aug 10, 20143 min read
Smelling the Roses
I feel jumbled on the inside. Frustrated every time I’m driving to work early in the morning and I want to call dad…. And I can’t. I just...
Amanda Winder
Aug 9, 20143 min read
Stewardship of a Child
Since dad’s been gone I’ve wanted to tell him so many things… share my little, yet expanding L.A. world with him like I always did…. but...
Amanda Winder
Aug 7, 20143 min read
What If We're An Illusion?
For the past few days I’ve been having these thoughts….. and at first I thought “Amanda you’re in shock. You’re not handling this death...
Amanda Winder
Aug 5, 20143 min read
Missing the Moment
I had a solid moment of regret yesterday….. regret followed by pain and tears. I regretted not telling dad goodbye when he was alert and...
Amanda Winder
Aug 4, 20143 min read
Passing of Pain
This pain never really goes away. The loss of a father is deep. So deep that I don’t even think I’ve tapped into it’s depths yet. Because...
Amanda Winder
Aug 2, 20143 min read
Dig Deep
So many emotions are swirling inside of me this morning. I know deep down that I have so much to prove in order to advance to the next...
Amanda Winder
Aug 1, 20142 min read
It's Just Heaven..... Right?
I had a dream last night and dad was in it… I had a dream last night and he was talking about Heaven. When I woke up it made me think...
Amanda Winder
Jul 31, 20143 min read
Staying Focused
I don’t know what I’ve been feeling for the past few days. I feel like I’m feeling so much, but I’m kind of ignoring it all…. trying to...
Amanda Winder
Jul 29, 20142 min read
It's Just a Body
Why is it that we care so much about the physical….. our bodies and what we can see and touch? I’ve asked myself this question before…....
Amanda Winder
Jul 26, 20144 min read
Lacking Fullness
Since dad’s death, Bridge has mentioned that her life has always been pretty perfect…. pretty perfect until now…. and after hearing her...
Amanda Winder
Jul 24, 20143 min read
Overriding Grief
I’m back…. back in the City of Angels…. and for some reason I’m not extremely happy to be here. I feel sad and a little angry. As...
Amanda Winder
Jul 23, 20143 min read
Life's a Blessing
5 am… 5 am came this morning and I just laid in my bed. I laid in my bed halfway dreading the fact that I was going to have to tell my...
Amanda Winder
Jul 22, 20143 min read
Fitting in With Self
Life’s situations have a funny way of leading us to what we love…. of course that’s only if we’re open enough to let them. In the midst...
Amanda Winder
Jul 20, 20143 min read
Breakdown v Breakthrough
I went into dad’s closet this morning to get a sweatshirt (apparently Shreveport’s decided to be in the 70s in July)…. and after I got...
Amanda Winder
Jul 19, 20143 min read
Selfishness
Wow…. I really miss my dad today. Like bad. I woke up and thought “I really miss dad.” But I couldn’t give myself a reason. Nothing...
Amanda Winder
Jul 17, 20144 min read
Distracted?
I’ve been told that with time it gets easier… And I’m starting to believe that’s true. I feel like the freshness of dad’s death is...
Amanda Winder
Jul 16, 20143 min read
Universal
Since dad’s death I’ve been learning that our struggles, our heartbreaks and heartaches…. well, they connect us. I’ve known for a while...
Amanda Winder
Jul 15, 20143 min read
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