My heart realm was a battlefield in the month of December. The assignment from Holy Spirit was clear. “Choose honor and reverence over sacrifice.” And, while I tried to lean into honor and reverence (really, I did), sacrifice won out.   On almost every occasion, I didn’t want to see my assignments or others from a place of honor. The narrative of sacrifice and service seemed so much easier. Why? Well, mainly because there are multiple people, places, and situations my soul do

Exactly two years ago, I was home for the holidays helping my mom care for my grandparents. Though caring for them wasn’t new, it was different because my mom was sick and couldn’t help out. So, my sister and I did all of the heavy lifting. On many occasions, my grandmother would apologize. She thought she was a burden. I kept explaining that she wasn’t. I was honored to care for her at 89-years-old. She and my grandfather (90-years-old) cared for me when I was younger, so wh

This year has been more challenging than I expected. It’s taken everything in me to keep moving forward. There have been many moments I didn’t think I could keep going. Moments that have overwhelmed my heart and soul in such a way that I’ve told Holy Spirit on numerous occasions, “I cannot do this anymore. It’s too much. The journey. The process. The pitfalls. The failures. The warfare. They’ve produced so much pain, disappointment and frustration inside of me. I don’t want t

Thoughts of power have been swirling around in my mind for the past two months. Not knowing where or how to land the plane, I keep...

I shared a blog at the end of July entitled, “You Chose to Follow.” In the blog, I told you about a soul part that got fragmented while...

On August 30, 1975 in Dallas, Texas, one of the greatest healing miracles of the 20 th century was executed. Delores, a 48-year-old...

Following Holy Spirit is supposed to lead our broken parts into healing, freedom, and integration… Right?        This is a question I’ve...

Last month, I shared a blog with you centered on a death vibration Holy Spirit has been teaching me how to uproot from my heart realm.  ...

A few weeks ago, I wrote a blog that gave you an inner look at my struggle with contentment. I told you how I don’t feel content in life...

I’ve been in a funky spot lately. I don’t know where I’m growing right now. I feel contention inside of my heart and soul, but I don’t...

I am not the CEO of Cultivate Life. God is. I’m simply following where Holy Spirit leads me.   It’s been like this since the inception....

About a month ago a wrote a blog, “It’s Locked. Now What?” In the blog, I told you about a gate in the spirit realm that I didn’t know...

A few days ago, I felt my spirit tap me on the shoulder while I was in the sauna. There I am sweating in the heat, ruminating on thoughts...

For at least two and a half years now, I’ve been pursuing a specific revelation with Holy Spirit. Every time I think I almost have the...

This photo of me was taken fifteen years ago this fall. When I look at this version of me, I see a 22-year-old girl who is deeply...

My relationship with hope is getting stronger. I have to admit, I’ve done a better job this week speaking out, “I expect _______.” Rather...

I am still circling the realm of hope. My soul is challenged by it daily. I actually had a massive, crying breakdown after Holy Spirit...

As the new year takes off, my assignment from Holy Spirit is becoming clearer. “You must step into the realm of hope, Amanda. You must...

If you read my last two writings of 2024, then you know I was deeply challenged in my soul by three specific situations. All three of...

2025 is officially here. My soul feels a little bit of fear and trepidation about stepping even a toe-length into it.   Because I am...