The Memory Tree
Since I was around the age of 15 I’ve complained about one thing… I didn’t think we had any family holiday traditions…. I’d look around...
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Amanda Winder
- Dec 17, 2014
- 2 min
Right Where I am...
do you ever wonder what the next stop is?… what the next little growing season will be in between reaching a goal?… sometimes i wonder...
Amanda Winder
- Nov 25, 2014
- 3 min
Grateful for the Pain
Now I’m not gonna lie and say being home is a breeze…. It’s painful and there are certainly tears… But if I could really describe this...
Amanda Winder
- Nov 17, 2014
- 3 min
The Holidays are Coming...
It’s an overwhelming thought to think…. the one that includes my mom having to sort through her life…. Knowing that she shouldn’t have to...
Amanda Winder
- Oct 21, 2014
- 3 min
Death Lessons
Death keeps teaching me so many lessons…. I wonder if it is one of the greatest teachers… There are so many facets to it… The absence of...
Amanda Winder
- Oct 18, 2014
- 4 min
We Just Do Life
And then there were three…. Three of us remain… and we are supposed to be a family of four… but that’s not how life turned out… and it’s...
Amanda Winder
- Oct 14, 2014
- 2 min
Grief: stage 2?
5-10 years with cancer…. Living with the knowledge of it for one month… One week in the hospital… 2 days spent as a family before he was...
Amanda Winder
- Sep 17, 2014
- 2 min
A Moment Without Words
There’s an image in my mind… An image I can’t shake… It’s the day of dads visitation and I’m running late… Moms a case of grief… She’s...
Amanda Winder
- Sep 17, 2014
- 2 min
The Weak One
I have a confession to make…. I’ve known it for a long time…. but I’m a weak person… No really I am… I’m weak… weak… not strong… I’m weak...
Amanda Winder
- Aug 28, 2014
- 2 min
Moment of Victory
What happens when the fears you used to have…. The ones that used to own your thought space diminish? I mean what do you do with yourself...
Amanda Winder
- Aug 20, 2014
- 3 min
Comfort in Finding Self
In death I’m learning that we’re all supposed to keep living…. keep living and moving forward and pursuing whatever it is we truly want...
Amanda Winder
- Aug 15, 2014
- 4 min
Plot Twist
Have you ever had those moments where you want to yell “plot twist?” I feel like my entire year has been devoted to that phrase. From...
Amanda Winder
- Jul 26, 2014
- 4 min
It's Just a Body
Why is it that we care so much about the physical….. our bodies and what we can see and touch? I’ve asked myself this question before…....
Amanda Winder
- Jul 24, 2014
- 3 min
Lacking Fullness
Since dad’s death, Bridge has mentioned that her life has always been pretty perfect…. pretty perfect until now…. and after hearing her...
Amanda Winder
- Jul 23, 2014
- 3 min
Overriding Grief
I’m back…. back in the City of Angels…. and for some reason I’m not extremely happy to be here. I feel sad and a little angry. As...
Amanda Winder
- Jul 22, 2014
- 3 min
Life's a Blessing
5 am… 5 am came this morning and I just laid in my bed. I laid in my bed halfway dreading the fact that I was going to have to tell my...
Amanda Winder
- Jul 19, 2014
- 3 min
Breakdown v Breakthrough
I went into dad’s closet this morning to get a sweatshirt (apparently Shreveport’s decided to be in the 70s in July)…. and after I got...
Amanda Winder
- Jul 17, 2014
- 4 min
Selfishness
Wow…. I really miss my dad today. Like bad. I woke up and thought “I really miss dad.” But I couldn’t give myself a reason. Nothing...
Amanda Winder
- Jul 16, 2014
- 3 min
Distracted?
I’ve been told that with time it gets easier… And I’m starting to believe that’s true. I feel like the freshness of dad’s death is...
Amanda Winder
- Jul 15, 2014
- 3 min
Universal
Since dad’s death I’ve been learning that our struggles, our heartbreaks and heartaches…. well, they connect us. I’ve known for a while...
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