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The Memory Tree
Since I was around the age of 15 I’ve complained about one thing… I didn’t think we had any family holiday traditions…. I’d look around...
Amanda Winder
Dec 20, 20143 min read
Right Where I am...
do you ever wonder what the next stop is?… what the next little growing season will be in between reaching a goal?… sometimes i wonder...
Amanda Winder
Dec 17, 20142 min read
Grateful for the Pain
Now I’m not gonna lie and say being home is a breeze…. It’s painful and there are certainly tears… But if I could really describe this...
Amanda Winder
Nov 25, 20143 min read
The Holidays are Coming...
It’s an overwhelming thought to think…. the one that includes my mom having to sort through her life…. Knowing that she shouldn’t have to...
Amanda Winder
Nov 17, 20143 min read
Death Lessons
Death keeps teaching me so many lessons…. I wonder if it is one of the greatest teachers… There are so many facets to it… The absence of...
Amanda Winder
Oct 21, 20143 min read
We Just Do Life
And then there were three…. Three of us remain… and we are supposed to be a family of four… but that’s not how life turned out… and it’s...
Amanda Winder
Oct 18, 20144 min read
Grief: stage 2?
5-10 years with cancer…. Living with the knowledge of it for one month… One week in the hospital… 2 days spent as a family before he was...
Amanda Winder
Oct 14, 20142 min read
A Moment Without Words
There’s an image in my mind… An image I can’t shake… It’s the day of dads visitation and I’m running late… Moms a case of grief… She’s...
Amanda Winder
Sep 17, 20142 min read
The Weak One
I have a confession to make…. I’ve known it for a long time…. but I’m a weak person… No really I am… I’m weak… weak… not strong… I’m weak...
Amanda Winder
Sep 17, 20142 min read
Moment of Victory
What happens when the fears you used to have…. The ones that used to own your thought space diminish? I mean what do you do with yourself...
Amanda Winder
Aug 28, 20142 min read
Comfort in Finding Self
In death I’m learning that we’re all supposed to keep living…. keep living and moving forward and pursuing whatever it is we truly want...
Amanda Winder
Aug 20, 20143 min read
Plot Twist
Have you ever had those moments where you want to yell “plot twist?” I feel like my entire year has been devoted to that phrase. From...
Amanda Winder
Aug 15, 20144 min read
It's Just a Body
Why is it that we care so much about the physical….. our bodies and what we can see and touch? I’ve asked myself this question before…....
Amanda Winder
Jul 26, 20144 min read
Lacking Fullness
Since dad’s death, Bridge has mentioned that her life has always been pretty perfect…. pretty perfect until now…. and after hearing her...
Amanda Winder
Jul 24, 20143 min read
Overriding Grief
I’m back…. back in the City of Angels…. and for some reason I’m not extremely happy to be here. I feel sad and a little angry. As...
Amanda Winder
Jul 23, 20143 min read
Life's a Blessing
5 am… 5 am came this morning and I just laid in my bed. I laid in my bed halfway dreading the fact that I was going to have to tell my...
Amanda Winder
Jul 22, 20143 min read
Breakdown v Breakthrough
I went into dad’s closet this morning to get a sweatshirt (apparently Shreveport’s decided to be in the 70s in July)…. and after I got...
Amanda Winder
Jul 19, 20143 min read
Selfishness
Wow…. I really miss my dad today. Like bad. I woke up and thought “I really miss dad.” But I couldn’t give myself a reason. Nothing...
Amanda Winder
Jul 17, 20144 min read
Distracted?
I’ve been told that with time it gets easier… And I’m starting to believe that’s true. I feel like the freshness of dad’s death is...
Amanda Winder
Jul 16, 20143 min read
Universal
Since dad’s death I’ve been learning that our struggles, our heartbreaks and heartaches…. well, they connect us. I’ve known for a while...
Amanda Winder
Jul 15, 20143 min read
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