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Racey Reality...
I live in a country where I’m allowed to express my mind… My thoughts… My reality…. My reality… My perspective on life has changed with...
Amanda Winder
Jul 7, 20162 min read
More Movement...
Father’s Day is now just another day to me… And it will probably be that way until I am married with children… And though it could be...
Amanda Winder
Jun 19, 20162 min read
Year Two...
June 2nd can be a bad day… It can be a day filled with regret, loss, tears, sadness, a “poor me it’s not fair… I want my dad back”...
Amanda Winder
Jun 2, 20162 min read
Seasonal Grief...
I’m in a place right now… A place that is full of grief… Yet full of excitement… Looking back, I’m grateful for the death of my dad and...
Amanda Winder
Jan 29, 20162 min read
An Open Letter to My Father...
I feel like there’s so much to say… But at the same time I feel like there’s nothing to say… Because death still sucks… A lot… But then I...
Amanda Winder
Dec 18, 20152 min read
Grief = Gladness...
The loss of someone is hard… It’s never easy to look around and realize my dad’s presence is missing from family holidays and traditions…...
Amanda Winder
Nov 27, 20152 min read
Break Up...
There’s a place in my heart that still feels pain… Most of the time the pain is faint… I can barely feel it because of the abundance of...
Amanda Winder
Oct 5, 20151 min read
Year One...
It’s been a year since I lost my incredibly antagonizing and loving father… It’s been a year since I’ve had to question so much about...
Amanda Winder
Jun 2, 20153 min read
Moments...
A year ago I decided to focus my life on living in the moment…. But as I began to live in the moment…. Well I got caught up in the fact...
Amanda Winder
Mar 2, 20153 min read
Stone Wall of Defense
Ignore it… Ignore it happened and allow the world to go on around you… That’s how I’ve been handling the death of my father lately…...
Amanda Winder
Feb 26, 20152 min read
This Christmas
It’s not even that the holidays are hard… They just aren’t the same… Christmas isn’t the same without you dad… Dad… You were the one that...
Amanda Winder
Dec 24, 20143 min read
The Memory Tree
Since I was around the age of 15 I’ve complained about one thing… I didn’t think we had any family holiday traditions…. I’d look around...
Amanda Winder
Dec 20, 20143 min read
I'm Happy Dad
the past few days have been a busy blur… and in the midst… well… i think about dad and then the thought is usually gone so quickly… it...
Amanda Winder
Dec 14, 20143 min read
The Rose
On Thanksgiving a rose was growing in my grandparents garden…. From a rose bush that my dad planted…. But the Rose was pink… And it was...
Amanda Winder
Dec 3, 20142 min read
Month Six...
July 2nd… August 2nd… September 2nd… October 2nd… November 2nd… And bam… December 2nd is here… It’s been six months… six months since...
Amanda Winder
Dec 2, 20143 min read
The Provider
Yesterday I starred thinking about the Yarbrough house…. the house I lived in for 16 years… the house my parents lived in for 20 years…...
Amanda Winder
Nov 7, 20144 min read
Still Without...
Missing dad becomes different…. Each time I miss him it seems to be for a different reason… Like he’s not there to take in the moment… or...
Amanda Winder
Oct 4, 20144 min read
Beauty from Pain
Why was I crying?…. Why was I crying because a 12 year old is so upset?… Why did her tears move me to that point?…. Why do I find myself...
Amanda Winder
Sep 26, 20143 min read
Downfall of Bitterness
Death has a strange way of bringing out the truth in people…. Seriously…. all of a sudden you can ask questions and hear people express...
Amanda Winder
Sep 25, 20143 min read
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