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The Valuable Lost...
Last week I lost five things… On four separate occasions… And I don’t ever loose things… Especially what’s of value to me… So I decided...
Amanda Winder
Jan 11, 20162 min read
An Open Letter to My Father...
I feel like there’s so much to say… But at the same time I feel like there’s nothing to say… Because death still sucks… A lot… But then I...
Amanda Winder
Dec 18, 20152 min read
Grief = Gladness...Â
The loss of someone is hard… It’s never easy to look around and realize my dad’s presence is missing from family holidays and traditions…...
Amanda Winder
Nov 27, 20152 min read
Break Up...
There’s a place in my heart that still feels pain… Most of the time the pain is faint… I can barely feel it because of the abundance of...
Amanda Winder
Oct 5, 20151 min read
Ring Regretfulness...
Being home means I am faced with reality… Meaning… I can’t ignore the fact that my dad is dead and my mom has been left with everything…...
Amanda Winder
Jul 11, 20154 min read
Reality Sucks...
Why does life have to remind you it’s real?…. I know that sounds stupid… But that’s how I feel right now… Life is reminding me how real...
Amanda Winder
Jul 6, 20152 min read
Year One...
It’s been a year since I lost my incredibly antagonizing and loving father… It’s been a year since I’ve had to question so much about...
Amanda Winder
Jun 2, 20153 min read
Being Human...
Why are we considered human once we’ve gone through tragedy?… What does it make us realer?… More reachable and accepting…. I’ve been...
Amanda Winder
May 27, 20152 min read
Finding Forgiveness...
The memory that continues to flood my mind this morning is one that involved hope… Leaving dad in the hospital… After spending the entire...
Amanda Winder
May 18, 20153 min read
Feeling It All...
We’re all entitled to bad days right?… You know the kind where you don’t really want to get up in the morning because you’re tired of...
Amanda Winder
May 10, 20152 min read
Embrace the Interest...
I’m hurting… There’s not an easier or better work for what I feel but pain… I just miss my dad… And it hasn’t hit me this hard in several...
Amanda Winder
May 2, 20152 min read
Too Young
It’s sad to think about mom being alone… It’s sad to hear her talk about selling our home… It’s sad to hear her say she’s going to...
Amanda Winder
Mar 7, 20151 min read
Moments...
A year ago I decided to focus my life on living in the moment…. But as I began to live in the moment…. Well I got caught up in the fact...
Amanda Winder
Mar 2, 20153 min read
Aftershocks...
Death and all that surrounds what it is has this way of creeping up on you at the most unexpected times… Like when I’m in Hobby Lobby...
Amanda Winder
Jan 23, 20152 min read
This Christmas
It’s not even that the holidays are hard… They just aren’t the same… Christmas isn’t the same without you dad… Dad… You were the one that...
Amanda Winder
Dec 24, 20143 min read
I'm Happy Dad
the past few days have been a busy blur… and in the midst… well… i think about dad and then the thought is usually gone so quickly… it...
Amanda Winder
Dec 14, 20143 min read
The Rose
On Thanksgiving a rose was growing in my grandparents garden…. From a rose bush that my dad planted…. But the Rose was pink… And it was...
Amanda Winder
Dec 3, 20142 min read
Month Six...
July 2nd… August 2nd… September 2nd… October 2nd… November 2nd… And bam… December 2nd is here… It’s been six months… six months since...
Amanda Winder
Dec 2, 20143 min read
Hugging It Out
When someone you love… someone you care about… someone that’s close to you is gone… you make a choice…. Mom said last month that she’s at...
Amanda Winder
Nov 26, 20143 min read
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