top of page
Writer's pictureAmanda Winder

Searching for Faithfulness

If you know me well, then you understand I constantly live at the edge of my faith. Why? Well because the edge is where the growth and maturity happen. If I’m not at the edge, then I’m not being stretched for more. I’m not being asked to believe for more. I am simply stagnant, holding on to the same stale faith I had the last time I needed to believe for something larger than my physical eyes could quantify.

 

Now, living at the edge of my faith is not a lifestyle my soul came by naturally. My soul would rather see the reality I hope for manifest before my eyes without having to grow an inch into anything more. However, that’s not how the spirit world is designed. The spirit world is encoded with the element of faith and it operates as a foundational backbone. It’s only through the activation and consistent operation of this backbone that we truly go forward as a human being.

 

Often times the human spirit is eager to faithfully move forward. The human spirit has this preloaded sense of understanding that often trusts Holy Spirit no matter what. So, the spirit is most often instigating the soul to grow and go, “a little further. Come on! We can live a little bit more at the edge!!”

 

The edge of my faith always produces the most fascinating outcomes. It’s always power-packed full of adventure and the great unknown. At any moment, something brave and new will be asked of me and I will have to respond with a resounding, “Yes! Yes, I can do this. I can go forward.”

 

The edge of my faith is also always a conduit of learning a new level of God’s faithfulness.

Recently, I told my sister, “You know when you’re obediently walking down the path Holy Spirit has laid out in front of you? Your soul is being completely faithful, but then you start to wonder, ‘Wait a second…. This part of the path is a lot longer than I thought it would be. Where is the faithfulness of God?!? He promised me his faithfulness would be here. I don’t see it. It’s not ahead of me or beside me. Maybe it’s behind me?’ Then I look back and check and don’t see it behind me and I think, ‘Oh I know it’s here. His faithfulness and promise to uphold his end of this walk always appears when it’s time.”

 

This is how I feel often. (It’s actually how I feel right now). Listening, following, obeying. Stretching my heart and soul out into the great unknown as they follow my spirit into realms and dimensions above their pay grade. And, all at once, my soul is wondering hoping, believing that the faithfulness and promises of God will reveal themselves to the naturel eye whenever time and timing decide it’s the appointed time.

 

It’s such a mad rush of emotion and exploration. There’s so much trust and hope sewn into the package. The trick is the keep the heart and soul from pondering too hard on the 3D reality they see. “Stay spirit forward.” Holy Spirit says. “Focus yourself on the reality your physical eyes cannot see. Look at where I am leading you. Follow it forward. There will be a large gain at the end of this process, but you must keep moving forward.”

 

So, I shift my eyes back onto the trans-dimensional paper in front of me and try to only focus on one line item at a time.

 

It’s challenging though. I’ve walked this path so many times that I know His faithfulness will appear. It does reveal itself in small, slender moments. I can see it glisten when the sun hits just right. His perfect faithfulness bounces right off of the page I’m glaring at, only to encourage and remind me that we have to get to the end of this part of the path to experience his faithfulness in it's fullness.

 

Copyright © 2024 Cultivate Life, All rights reserved.

0 comments

Recent Posts

See All

Comments


bottom of page